ラビッシュ (Rubbish) – しーくん (seeeeecun)

ラビッシュ (Rubbish) – しーくん (seeeeecun)

lyrics, music: しーくん (seeeeecun)
album: Bohemian Bloom (2019)
SE1390-402559

English Translation


Rubbish

Just like I came out of rubbles,
I’m gasping, drowning somewhere.
Oh, that’s how my irony works,
it’s like running through my diary.

I should give up on talent;
are there only geniuses in this world?
I hate it. Am I okay as myself?

Do you know?

I say “this is my ideal occupation”,
even though I’m aiming to say “is it true?”
But that made my mom happy.
I wanted to play the “role” of a child,
but later a voice resounded: “failure”.

I became rubbish.

When I don’t bury it, a voice comes out.
Saying “I want to disappear into nothing”, I got buried.
It freely beats inside my head.
Can you forgive me for giving you high expectations?
I’ve thrown my selfishness away a while ago,
so there’s no need to worry.

I somehow buried my true intentions,
it takes one mistake to turn them into a lethal weapon.
I’m gonna commit a double suicide with monotony.
Everyone, could you think about who you really
expect me to be?

Coming from my head, my brand new
rushing heart is trembling.
No way I’m retreating,
I’m gonna run through the abyss.

I’m turning to the lowest level
with my fluent excuses.
I hate it. Am I okay as myself?

Do you know?

“One brain wasn’t enough for that”
“That wasn’t suitable for me at all”
But I was hesitant.
I wanted to escape with my childish heart,
watching tomorrow’s mood as a spectator.

I became dried up inside my emptiness.
“Don’t stare at me”.

When I don’t bury it, a voice comes out.
“I want to disappear into nothing” I wondered if I could.
It freely binds to the inside of my head.
Do you feel sorry for blowing through a conch shell?
If it was all show, you’d have thrown it away long ago.
So would you please hear what I have to say?

I hid to be buried,
I held my breath to not make mistakes.
I’m going to be assimilated to my monotony.
Everyone, could you think about who you really
expect me to be?

When I don’t bury it, a voice comes out.
Saying “I want to disappear into nothing”, I got buried.
It freely beats inside my head.
Can you forgive me for giving you high expectations?
I’ve thrown my selfishness away a while ago,
so there’s no need to worry.

“I won’t bury it!” my voice lets out
the thoughts that were supposed to disappear.
Inside my head, I wanna do whatever I want.
Can you forgive me for having to bear with me?
I just threw my lid away,
so there’s no need to worry.

I want to bury my pretenses,
I made one mistake and turned them into a lethal weapon.
I’m going to rise up with my monotony.
Everyone, could you think about who you really
expect me to be?
I should think about who I really should be
for my own sake.

 

Romaji 

Rubbish

Gareki no naka kara sokkuri
doko ka de bukubuku tte oboreteru
Arara boku wa souda airni
kakenukeru you ni shite daiarii

Sainou ni mairune
konoyo ni wa jiiniasu bakkari?
Iyada ii no? maiserufu

Shitteru?

“Risou no shokugyou koredane!” tte
hitasura mezasukedo “honto kana?”
Demo yorokobu mama ga ita
Kodomo no “yakume” wo hatashitakatta
gojitsu hibiku “fu goukaku” no koe

Garakuta ni natta

Maizou shinaito koe ga dete
“kiete nakunaritai” to imoreta
Atama no naka shiba karehoudai
Sanzan kitai sasete gomenne?
Wagamama wa sakki sutetekitayo
Dakara anshin shitekurete mo ii

Maizou shita ine honne nante
misu shitara kyouki to kashiteru nda
Boku wa monotoon to shinjuu shiteyaru
Souzou shite minayo
hontou no boku wa hatashite dare?

Atama no naka kara massara
bakubaku tte kokoro ga furueteru
Masaka boku ga sonna tairo ni
kakenukeru you ni shite naraku ni

Saitei ni mawarune
perapera to iiwaketachi bakkari
Iyada ii no? maiserufu

Shitteru?

“Noumiso ikko tarinakatta”
“Boku ni wa zenzen mukaitenakatta”
Demo tajirogu boku ga ita
Kodomo no kokoro de nigetakatta
gojitsu ki ni naru boukansha no me ga

Karakara ni natte karappo no naka
“Jirojiro to minjanai”

Maizou shinaito koe ga dete
“Kiete naku naretara” to ugomeita
Atama no naka shibararehoudai
Sanzan hora fuite gomenne?
Mienaraba sakki sutetekitayo
Dakara hanashi wo kiite onegai

Maizou suru you ni kakushite
Misu shinai you ni iki wo koroshita
Boku wa monotoon to douka shiteyaru
Souzou shite minayo
hontou no boku wa hatashite dare?

Maizou shinaito koe ga dete
“Kiete nakunaritai” to imoreta
Atama no naka shiba karehoudai
Sanzan kitai sasete gomenne?
Wagamama wa sakki sutetekitayo
Dakara anshin shitekurete mo ii

“Maizou shinai!” to koe ga dete
kiete nakunatta hazu no omoi ga
Atama no naka yaritaihoudai
Sanzan taesasete gomenne?
Futa nante sakki sutetekitayo
Dakara anshin shitekurete mo ii

Maizou shita ine tatemae tte
misu shitara kyouki to kashiteta nda
Boku wa monotoon to joushou shiteyaru
Souzou shite minayo
hontou no boku wa hatashite dare?
Souzou shitemitara hontou no boku wa
boku no tame

 

Kanji [credits: lyrical-nonsense]

ラビッシュ

ガレキの中からソックリ
どこかでブクブクって溺れてる
あらら 僕はそうだ アイロニ
駆け抜けるようにしてダイアリー

才能に参るね
この世にはジーニアスばっかり?
嫌だ いいの?マイセルフ

知ってる?

「理想の職業これだね!」って
ひたすら目指すけど「ほんとかな?」
でも 喜ぶママがいた
子供の「役目」を果たしたかった
後日響く「不合格」の声

ガラクタになった

埋蔵しないと声が出て
「消えて無くなりたい」と埋もれた
頭の中しばかれ放題
散々期待させてごめんね?
ワガママはさっき捨ててきたよ
だから安心してくれてもいい

埋蔵したいね本音なんて
ミスしたら凶器と化してるんだ
僕はモノトーンと心中してやる
想像してみなよ 本当の僕は果たして誰?

頭の中から真っさら
バクバクって心が震えてる
まさか 僕がそんな退路に
駆け抜けるようにして奈落に

最低に回るね
ペラペラと言い訳たちばっかり
嫌だ いいの?マイセルフ

知ってる?

「脳みそ一個足りなかった」
「僕には全然向いてなかった」
でも たじろぐ僕がいた
子供の心で逃げたかった
後日気になる傍観者の目が

カラカラになって空っぽの中
「ジロジロと見んじゃない」

埋蔵しないと声が出て
「消えてなくなれたら」とうごめいた
頭の中 縛られ放題
散々ホラ吹いてごめんね?
見栄ならばさっき捨ててきたよ
だから話を聞いてお願い

埋蔵するように隠して
ミスしないように息を殺した
僕はモノトーンと同化してやる
想像してみなよ 本当の僕は果たして誰?

埋蔵しないと声が出て
「消えて無くなりたい」と埋もれた
頭の中しばかれ放題
散々期待させてごめんね?
ワガママはさっき捨ててきたよ
だから安心してくれてもいい

「埋蔵しない!」と声が出て
消えてなくなったはずの想いが
頭の中 やりたい放題
散々耐えさせてごめんね?
フタなんて さっき捨ててきたよ
だから安心してくれてもいい

埋蔵したいね 建前って
ミスしたら凶器と化してたんだ
僕はモノトーンと上昇してやる
想像してみなよ 本当の僕ははたして誰?
想像してみたら本当の僕は僕の為

Translation and romaji by me. Please don’t claim as yours. Credit if you use.
English is not my first language, feel free to let me know if there are any mistakes.

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