family name – ZOC
lyrics and music: Reiko Omori
Single: family name (2019)
English Translation
family name
I don’t get why my mom gets angry,
I lock the door of my unstable equilibrium.
This is strange, I wonder why I was given birth.
I throw everything I can get my hands on.
I’ll break as much as I am broken.
I’ll scrape out my precious dolls’ bowels too.
I can’t even love someone, like this.
Well, that’s boring and troubling.
I guess…
Now I want to live without hearing that name again.
I can be pretty without being pathetic.
It’s surprising how it doesn’t tighten my throat.
family name, I share the same curse,
that’s why I won’t give up on light.
family name, I don’t care about it,
peace and order are so bad they cause a bug.
Damn, I’m going to live!
I easily throw away both Heisei era (1) and my teens.
From there on, I’ll put a price tag on my insanity.
I sell my unwanted emotions, because
even if I use them, they don’t disappear.
I guess…
You can’t communicate everything, it’s frustrating,
yet not contradictory.
Look at how far I lived;
until the end of this world and myself.
family name, with a fine vocabulary,
even sadness looks pretty, not a problem.
family name, don’t care at all.
Legitimacy and justice, I just get rid of both.
I’ll punch hard.
family name, I share the same curse,
that’s why I won’t give up on light.
family name, I don’t care about it,
peace and order are so bad they cause a bug.
Damn, I’m going to live!
(1) – The Heisei era refers to the period of Japanese history
corresponding to the reign of Emperor Akihito from 8 January 1989
until his abdication on 30 April 2019.
Romaji
family name
Wake wakannai koto de mama ga okotteru
antei no fuantei ni kagi wo shimeru
Konna no okashuiine nande undano
Te ni todoku mono zenbu nagetobashita
Watashi to onaji kurai kowareroyo
Taisetsuna dooru mo harawata kakidashite
Kore ja dare no koto mo aisenai
Demo sonna no tsumannaishi yakkaida
Sasshite
Sono namae wa nidoto mou kikazu ni ikiteikitai
Kawaisou nuki demo kawaiishi
watashi wo gyutteshinai nante okashii
family name onaji noroi de
dakara tte hikari wo akiramenaiyo
family name okamainashida
Chian warui mama baguraseteko
Kusso ikiteyaru
Heisei mo juudai mo yoyuu de sutete
Sono saki no kyouki ni nefuda tsukete
iranai kanjou shika uranaikara
shouhi sareta tte kie wa shinai
Sasshite
zenbu tsutawaranaiyo modokashii mujun shitenai
Ikinuita sono saki wo mitekure
watashi to kono yo no hate made
family name tsunda goiryoku de
kanashimi mo haeteru mondainaiyo
family name nan mo ki ni sunna
Seiron mo seigi mo zenbu jamana dake
Buchikamashiteko
family name onaji noroi de
dakara tte hikari wo akiramenaiyo
family name go kamainashida
Chian warui mama baguraseteko
Kusso ikiteyaru
Kanji [credits: mojim]
family name
わけわかんないことでママが怒ってる
安定の不安定に 鍵をしめる
こんなのおかしいね なんで産んだの
手に届くもの全部投げ飛ばした
私と同じくらい壊れろよ
大切なドールも ハラワタ掻き出して
これじゃ誰のことも愛せない
でもそんなのつまんないし 厄介だ
察して
その名前は二度ともう聞かずに生きていきたい
かわいそう抜きでもかわいいし
私をぎゅってしないなんておかしい
family name 同じ呪いで
だからって光を諦めないよ
family name 御構い無しだ
治安悪いまま バグらせてこ
クッソ生きてやる
平成も十代も余裕で捨てて
その先の狂気に 値札つけて
いらない感情しか売らないから
消費されたって消えはしない
察して
全部伝わらないよ もどかしい 矛盾してない
生き抜いたその先をみてくれ
私と この世の果てまで
family name 詰んだ語彙力で
悲しみも映えてる 問題ないよ
family name なんも気にすんな
正論も正義も全部邪魔なだけ
ブチかましてこ
family name 同じ呪いで
だからって光を諦めないよ
family name 御構い無しだ
治安悪いまま バグらせてこ
クッソ生きてやる
Translation and romaji by me. Please don’t claim as yours. Credit if you use.
English is not my first language, feel free to let me know if there is any mistake.